she broke every little piece of everything she could see and when the police took her in she don't remember what she did

mary's heart just isn't working like it should she don't feel it she don't care in the summer she works part time at the church she don't hear the bells no more and she's got it figured out alone and she left her makeup bag at home it's her favorite place she's ever known but she can't stop acting like she's grown mary's heart broke in the middle of the night she was crying in the loft no one heard her, no one knew where she had gone she don't know what she was doing that was wrong in the winter she can't be alone she ain't gonna make it through the cold mary called her parents on the phone they were sliding off the road

mary don't you know what you were doing that was wrong you were trying to get home but you never did you were in the cold and you just wanted to go home didn't mean to cry on the phone cause of what he said mary your heart broke and you just wanna see it fixed you're way too caught up in the mix and it don't make sense now when you get older you'll feel different and ashamed you'll just wanna prove you've changed but you never will i hope you're better right now oooooh do dodoododododododododoododo i hope you're better right now oooooooh dododododooodooododododododoodo MARY TELL THE TRUTH YOU'RE FEELING SO SCARED AND ALONE EVEN THOUGH YOUR FAMILY IS HOME IT DON'T REALLY HELP MARY YOU JUST WANNA SEE AN IMMEDIATE CHANGE YOU CAN GO AND TRY TO CHANGE YOUR AGE BUT YOU NEVER WILL MARY KNOW YOUR PARENTS AND KNOW THAT THEY'RE NOT ASHAMED THEY KNOW YOU'RE STILL TRYING TO CHANGE AND THEY KNOW YOU WILL YOU TOOK YOUR HEART OUT AND YOU NAILED IT TO THE CROSS JUST TO PROVE YOU WEREN'T LOST BUT YOU STILL AIN'T FOUND!! I HOPE YOU'RE BETTER RIGHT NOW OOOOOHHHHHHH DOOODODOODODODODODOODODODOODDOODODODO I HOPE YOU'RE BETTER RIGHT NOOOOW OOOOOOHHH DODODODODODODODODODOODODODODODODODODOODODOODO

try it i'm begging you to try it i wanna see you try and hit me in the face but I know that you won't yeah, I know that you won't and I know neither will your little fucking friends cause all you do is talk that's all you do is talk cause god knows that you never learned to read cause all you are's a jock a stupid little jock that stopped maturing when he hit ninth grade i don't want to hear your racist shit or about how you wanna give your money to the rich cause you're just a kid that mommy didn't want and daddy was too scared to ever tell you no and mom and dad divorced you thought it was your fault and so you made your personality kicking a ball and so you took it out on all the little kids who weren't as scared as you to go and be themself and now you're all alone and you don't even play cause god knows you were never all that good but you'll still be the same because you never cared you're just gonna keep on looking at yourself i hope I never think of you as much as old me used to do your mother won't be proud of you if you told her you wouldn't help someone that's dying your school friends, where did they go now? they won't wait for you to shut your mouth but if all you want is to be free then god damn boy, you can always leave Hey!

i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend do you remember when we were so young and immature? we thought we were gonna make it work but it didn't work like it did before so now every time I see you i don't even think you wanna see me round and I don't understand, no i don't understand just how different we turned out i think you liked it when they all listened you could control it but I sure didn't i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend i don't wanna go, no, i don't wanna go to your house this weekend your voice is so loud i wish I could shut your mouth but you really like the sound you really like the sound of your own damn bad idea oh, i don't really know, no i don't really know what you're doing in your head but you ain't been the same, no you ain't been the same since you made me go and crawl under your bed and I don't feel good and you don't care how i threw up twice now i'm gonna pass out i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head i held your hand above my head as we walked on down the sidewalk i held your hand above my head oh, goddamn it, i'm done

Help me get a better understand of Why I deserve the same amount of love As everyone who is around me I feel like I don't match up to them I need something to make me feel so special I wanna go out and not feel like a piece of shit How can you tell if what you said was fine Or if everybody's looking at you weird now When I was a kid it didn't make no sense Why people didn't wanna be my friend But looking back now that I'm older I think I completely understand I want it to still matter that it's summer I don't care if what I'm saying sounds like total shit It hurts when you internalize the fact that You aren't ever gonna feel okay again I broke my very favorite VHS tape When I was just about six years old I did it on purpose 'cause I didn't like That one scene even though I liked the rest I knew what I did it couldn't be undone I felt like the dumbest person in the world But I couldn't do anything to make it better I went crying to my dad and told him what I did He wasn't proud of me He wasn't proud of me He wasn't proud of me And if you just want it to be alright, God damn it Then it's never gonna be alright But if you think you need a little advice Don't worry, you ain't supposed to feel alright And I don't wanna be alone, God damn it I don't wanna be alone, God damn it I don't never wanna be alone, God damn I swear And I know it's better left unsaid, but God damn it I know it's better left unsaid, but God damn it I know it's better left unsaid, but I can't just unsay it now Spent the whole summer in the rain And when I came out I felt like a part of me had changed But the more I get older and awake Those people that changed me, they all just seem to go away 'Cause when you care more about having friends Then you do about being honest with them, no All it's gonna do is not make any sense, no All it's gonna do is not make any sense 'Cause I felt like Jesus Christ had come to get me He was telling me what I done wrong But I didn't wanna hear it No, God damn it I just really wanted to go home And I thought that it was better to keep on saying nothing Than risk talking and saying something wrong When she cried I didn't hold her I didn't even touch her 'Cause I thought that she would take it wrong And her mama called the police Or maybe she didn't But she threatened me with it on the phone 'Cause I kept her daughter out way later than her curfew And she really didn't like that at all And she said her mama told her she ain't supposed to see me Said that we couldn't hang out anymore And she really kept her promise I still don't wanna see her She don't even live here anymore And I'm sorry for the years that I spent doing nothing I was crying on my bedroom floor But I don't wanna do it No, God damn it I don't wanna do it anymore I saw your message on the window pane I felt your presence underneath me I know you are in a better place now I wrote a letter and I put it in the ground I don't think you knew how much that you meant to me But I won't ever make that same mistake again What could I do? I was only six years old No one ever really talked to me about death I knew you weren't getting any better, but I thought that we would've had a little more time I hope your time with me was worth it I hope you don't have to wear the eye patch I lost the video game that you gave me It had your name written on the title screen I wish I had it in my bedroom I wish I could talk to you again

late autumn i don't know where you been late autumn you look just like winter take off all of our clothes and burn them wait autumn i don't wanna see you here ever again oh, please oh, late autumn, i don't wanna see you leave oh, late autumn, i just wanna see you bleed oh, late autumn, i don't wanna see you leave oh, late autumn, i just wanna see you bleed oh, late autumn, i don't wanna see you leave!

jeremiah why don't you come on over take a seat saved a spot right next to me go on get up off your feet i want to get a little closer i want to get a little closer jeremiah i don't care if the other people stare this is just for me and you i don't always tell the truth but now we're getting so much closer and now we're getting so much closer jeremiah are you scared don't you know that i am too i don't wanna be around all these people they're so cruel i didnt think i'd be here in the first place didn't think that i would be here in the first place i cut my hand on the mirror i don't trust no other people i want you to hold it against me now solo i cut my hand on the mirror i don't trust no other people i hope you don't hold it against me for being too scared jeremiah i was so in love with you solo round 2

i understand if you spit right in my face i would do the same thing if i was you that's what you want a violent attack but there's no coming back no i will go and then you'll see the real inside of me when i'm laid on the butcher's table you won't see shit a hollow little shell a stupid kid who don't got no guts and there are so many things i would say if i was in a position to talk but i can't weave my words the way you do i'd forget the punctuation now that i'm here i feel like i'm not free i feel like i'm a stupid person i can't do shit i can't maintain myself i can't wake up and feel your body i see myself a hollow little shell a stupid ugly jerk who don't shut up and i get through through each and every day by knowing someday i won't be around and there are so many things i wont say if i could stop myself from talking then i'd take every word from my brain and leave only punctuation and there are so many things i have said that i wont get over till i am dead and it echoes through every inch of my head i really don't wanna be here

from the first time i was awake i haven't had no other way but there ain't no differences to me but there ain't no differences to me this one won't be just a dumb mistake i take my hand and touch your face i know you're not listening to me i know you're not listening to me before i was too old i couldn't stop i squeezed it to the drop and now there ain't nothing left for me no god, there ain't nothing left for me before the bombs fell right in my street you came over and laid on my sheets i don't wanna know what you think of me i don't wanna know what you think of me when i was so young i didn't know i had no other place to go and now there ain't no escape for me and now there ain't no escape for me even after i had came out it didn't stop all the self doubt i don't know anything about myself i don't know anything about myself for all those years i was alone at your place it still felt like home and now i got nowhere to be free and now i got nowhere to be free and from the start of my stupid life i've cared about yours more than mine so how am i just supposed to leave so how am i just supposed to leave and i know that i wasn't your first choice or your last but i will try to make it all up to you and i know you'll never be nobody's second best you're so much better than the rest and you don't know but if i am with you i'm okay to finish last jeremiah i won't break you down at all and i'd break my back just to feel your hands around my neck jeremiah i'll be what you want me to

brave bird she’s kicking her feet worm is hanging from her teeth she’s barely getting any sleep words they start to lose their meanings tape it to the ceiling almost knocked it off, wait gonna take a long break rhythms in the distance making you feel worthless ending your existence making all the difference hesitate with meanings tell me how you’re feeling is there something wrong, bird i only wanna help you my little buddy brave bird are you feeling okay, bird you havent been the same bird the one from when I knew you you're living in the creek now we don’t need you to speak now just promise that you’ll hold me for just a little longer when i see you’ll remind me you’ll make me feel so happy we’ll take it day by day, bird til you’re cutting out the cake, bird i’m gonna keep you safe bird i’ll never make you wait bird i promise while I know you i’m always gonna love you you won’t make no mistakes, bird you need to leave the cage bird it’s wrapping all around you that’s why nobody found you you gotta find the key bird they hid it in the sea bird i'll dive right to the bottom they hid it there in autumn i know you’ll feel a difference and i can make an inference you’re gonna be okay bird you shouldn’t feel ashamed bird and ever since i knew you i wanna tell it to you you’re doing real okay bird you're really doing great bird you’re being really brave bird